Why????

Why do people treat me like shit???
Why do people think i don't love them??
why does she have to think nonsense??
what does he have to prove to her that he loves the girl of his life so much???
why is love so hard??

Is it wrong to love someone???
What did I do??
Why do people make wrong stupid decisions??
Can't they understand my situation??
It isn't that i went fu**in around!!!!
I was fu**in fightin for my life in the hospital..
i had my worst week in the hospital...
and wen i get back and read things this is what i feel!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(I FEEL LIKE DYING...WISH I COULD DO SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Thinkin bout how (YOU) loved me rili hurts me till d end..
she never trusted my love at all..
its so so so hurting..

thank you..
you mean alot in my love life..
just remember that i'll alwiz luv u no matter wat..
think about what your saying..dun simply say things as u wish..

Basshunter- All I Ever Wanted

Haihz...It's left to me n myself...
All alone afta alot of things happened..
hmmm...try listenin to this song..
it's the only thing that keeps me strong till now..
the words..the meanings..the music..



BassHunter- All I Ever Wanted..

Forever I Shall Cry

Starring out into the darkness,
Praying i'll see your face appear,
Gazing into the moonlight,
Oh how I miss you my dear.

The night's are o so lonely
But the day's are equally worse,
You've casted this spell upon me.
I just can't get rid of this curse.

My thought's leave me to wonder,
wether one day you shall return,
But until you show your face around here.
Forever my heart shall burn.

You've shut me out of your life completely
For why I do not know
Tell me why have you done this
Tell me why I love you so?

Some day's I sit and wonder
Was it me who made this wrong?
Is it my fault that im dying
When the pain just last's so long.

Come lay down beside me,
Rest your head on my arm,
Let me fall so fast again
by the quickness of your charm.

Tell me that you love me,As much as I love you.

Though I know these are just fantasy, a simple dream I wish was true,
I don't ask for much at all, All I ask for is you.

So I sit by my window hoping you'll drop by,
But until I see your face,Forever I shall cry...


(im still waiting!!!!!!!!)

Freezing in the Arms of Loneliness

In the chilly frozen air, i try to catch my breath.
this cold surrounds me, almost like death.

It's just another heart break, no big deal.
so why do i have this pain that i no longer want to feel?

I knew you were leaving, long before i could see.
Yet i could not believe it or set my heart free.

I never knew it was like this, to be alone and so very lost.
It's true what they say, love always has its cost.

So now i stand, without you here.
This moment in time was my greatest of fears.

My thoughts drift away, leaving me mindless.
Suspended in frozen time of loneliness.


(I don't mind being ditched,but tell me in advance so that i can shield up my heart)

You Said!!!!!!!

You said you love me.
Then why are you hurting me?
You said you would never leave me.
Then why did you?

You said I'm the best thing that happened to you.
Then why you made the worst thing that happened to me.
You said your life would be incomplete with out me.
Well is it because my life is complete without you??????

Trapped In Our Memories!!!!!

Trapped in my memories of you and I
Trapped in memories that sometimes make me want to cry

Trapped in the thought of what we were and what we could have been
Trapped in the last time I saw you, yea I remember when (WISH I COULD!!!!!!!!!)

Trapped in the old but yet good times
Trapped in memories, makes me wish I was blind

Because looking back the good is all I see
Trapped in a fantasy that will never be

Trapped in the thought of us

Trapped in our first and last kiss
Trapped in the saying I WISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Trapped in remembrance of every feature of you
From your skin, to your eyes, to your lips, and yea

Trapped in the bond we once shared
Trapped in the thought that you once cared

Trapped in the feelings I had and still have

Trapped in the memories of our DATES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Trapped in the word soul- mate

Trapped in memories that make me smile, laugh, cry, and frown
Trapped in the thought of settling down

Settling down with you, of course
Trapped in memories like this, of course

Trapped in the word love and being in love
Trapped in memories I just can't shake or shove

Trapped in old conversations we use to have

Trapped in memories of you
Trapped in remembrance of the things we used to do

Trapped in memories of hearing your voice
Trapped in memories that once made me rejoice

Trapped in memories of you holding me at night
Trapped in memories of when we used to play fight

Damn Im so trapped in memories of you
And the sad part Im trapped & dont know what to do

Trapped in the months we put in
Sadden that those months are gone with the wind

Trapped in the memory you once loved me
Trapped in that memory makes me dizzy

Trapped in the text messages we use to send
Trapped in the thought we were once friends

Trapped in the thought of what I found & lost in one person

My best friend, my love, my lover, my strength, my confident, my pride, my joy, my all
Trapped in memories of sitting by the phone just waiting on your call

Trapped in the smile you use to put on my face
Trapped in memories I cant seem to erase


(JUST HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

The Flame That Flickers..

I longed for your breath against my face
With one breath you blew off the candle in my heart
The candle that I kept burning for you secretly
Now its just smoke filling the air

My vision was blurred by the smoke
Worried only that I cant see you smile
The smile that I know so much about
Sweet as honey but bitter at the same time

The hot wax melted on my heart
Its the sensation of pain and numb
As the room darkens I felt a sudden chill
A coldness that will relieve this pain of mine

Darkness has made my sense of touch better
As I touch your face I felt dampness of tears
Something I never felt before in the light
For I took you for granted when there was still light

Darkness has also made my nose sensitive
But only to your fragrant scent
The one that smells like lavender field
That is how I'm paying the price now..


(do u know hw does it feels if the wax touches on ur bare skin? it does hurt!!)

Why Goodbye??

I've lost you.... its killing me deep inside
shattering me.... unable to keep going
Why is it goodbye.... you said thousands times worse...

I'm sorry.... I'm hating myself... for all that happened
Wish you could forgive me.... no life without you
Never thought u will say goodbye.... never knew still loving you could hurt so bad

all i can do is curl up and cry....
cant eat... cant sleep... cant even function anymore
its just too much to deal with....
Thought you would always be there for me....
but your not.... and its gotta be my fault again

only can hold hope for you forgiving me at a long shot.


(im sry, its all my fault)

The Lucky Musician

For a while, I have been waiting for this heavenly music
That which is in resonance with my heart�s rhythm
I am truthfully happy that I am bless with this gift
For it makes my static world revolves again

Every single note you composed, are revised in my mind
Every single piece you play, reflects the story of your life
For once I am confident of your composing skill
Because it never failed to touch my soul

I thought I was your main violin player
But as the orchestra starts to play, you deliberately cut its string
Placing me in front role seats
Still I present my best for you everyday waiting to perform on that stage again

I sat there admiring your work and envied the other musicians
It was easy taking photos of you
Choosing the best pictures of you and immortalize it in a photo album
Hoping only that one day you can posses my portrait in return

Although I am the audience, but you will feel this strong presence of mine
I will always be there to support you
Nevertheless, I am not expecting your support in return
For I am still waiting for that one faithful day


(wishing that special one day will be today!!!!)

Love Hold

How did she tell me?
So that I always knew
That our life together
Was to be so special,
Only experienced by a select few

I was so blind to the truth,
So ignorant and confused
It hurt when I first realized
My heart was used and abused

Yet what words can I say as a plea?
To change your mind and make you change.
What harmony and affection can hold you to me?

Yet you cut off my plea to you
And you laugh in my face
I'm torn and broken
I'm forever disgraced

How did it end up like this?
How did it end at all?!
We were once so strong and firm
Please tell me how did we fall?

I am alone, I am crying,
My body within is stone cold
So not to let the thoughts in
For what is my life?
Without my love hold...